" and anything to make you smile ... ♥ "

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I've been alone with you inside my mind
And in my dreams I've kissed your lips a thousand times
I sometimes see you pass outside my door
Hello, is it me you're looking for?

I can see it in your eyes
I can see it in your smile
You're all I've ever wanted, (and) my arms are open wide
'Cause you know just what to say
And you know just what to do
And I want to tell you so much, I love you ...

I long to see the sunlight in your hair
And tell you time and time again how much I care
Sometimes I feel my heart will overflow
Hello, I've just got to let you know

'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely, or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying, I love you ...

Hello, is it me you're looking for?
'Cause I wonder where you are
And I wonder what you do
Are you somewhere feeling lonely or is someone loving you?
Tell me how to win your heart
For I haven't got a clue
But let me start by saying ... I love you
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omgosh. this song is super super nice(: it makes me think of my other half.
how i want to make him happy every single day {♥}
its like i don't know where to start ... but let me start by saying i love you.

" the greatest thing you'll ever learn is just to love and be loved in return ... "

gosh. this really made me realise how much the past month has been for me.
meeting him really changed my life in so many different aspects .. of course in a good way!(:
growing up as the only daughter in the family has really spoiled me. i've been like well protected by my parents as they look out for me the most. as such, my personality has been like a spoilt little princess.

but, i wish i could change that.
i keep saying i want to change, but i always see myself not putting effort, in the end, it's always my other half giving in to me.
:(
being 18years old physically, but 16years old mentally is not really ... a good thing.
i lose out in years of maturity and this affects my mindset as a person. i'm always seeing things from my own point of view instead of others. and this has hurt my other half really badly. when he gets hurt, i feel like a knife-stab in my heart.
T.T
no longer will i be a kiddy person. i can't always rely on my parents to provide a well sheltered home for me. soon, i will have to move out and live on my own, and if i don't learn how to take care of myself, i'm going to lose out really badly.
so i've to grow up. mentally especially ...
(:

cc is like my very first boyfriend i've ever loved so dearly.
and because of that, i've learnt how to treasue one close to my heart.
like what my friend told me " love covers all ... "
i'm not perfect, but he still loves me.
he is not perfect, but i still love him.
because i love him, i am willing to change for him(: to grow up especially! :D hahaha.

cc is like my very first boyfriend i've ever cried so much over.
it's not a bad thing! it just says that i really don't want to let him go.
like what my friend told me " in a relationship, hurting one another is inevitable .. but because you love your other half so much, you don't mind being hurt by him and he will feel the same too ... "
i've hurt him countless times, but he still loves me.
and i will still continue to love him even if he hurts me, even if he makes me cry.
because i love him, i am willing to do anything for him(:

its through the turbulences of one's relationship that determines the vey foundation of it.
we either break through, or we will break under.
and i believed we have broken through many differences and diffculties.
no doubt that there will be more coming up in the future, but i know he will give me the strength to persevere on!
as long as he stays close by my side, i will definitely feel a strong sense of security :D

all in all, i just want to say that i love him a lot.
and will continue to love him no matter what.
our future indeed is uncertain, but as long as we treasure every single moment we have with each other, i'm sure that nothing else matters(:
i have never loved someone so much in my life.
and because of that, i feel more vulnerable than before, but because of that, i have opened myself to more experiences i've never felt before.
i love him for his imperfections and i love him for who he is.
there is nothing else and nobody else who can change that.

that's all i'm going to post for today(:
loving cheerleading and cc ttm!{♥} you will always be the love of my life.