champouf posted Deep in Thoughts. on Friday, June 29, 2012
Hi guys! I'm just going to do a short post due to the fact that it's in the wee hours in the morning and that I've a medical checkup in a few hours time! :P
Today Cheer was rather solemn: well actually it was quite funny at the beginning because of the way I sprained my left ankle! Haha. Well it's nothing serious actually, rest assure I did not fall from a tall height. Now that I think of it, it would not sound so ridiculous if I had sustained an injury from falling from a height. I sprained my ankle while jumping. I'm serious. Lately I've been jumping a lot due to me wanting to master my partner stunts, but this time a small jump and I landed on the side of my ankle. The pain was excruciating, but it was not as bad as the embarrassment. Haha! As of now, all my training sessions has to be put on hold for me to recover. Bummer.
Anyways the solemn part was mainly during and after training: a friend of mine has just returned to Cheer recently but she was quite down in the dumps as she felt that she did not do as well as the last time she had trained. She was rather harsh on herself as she shared with me how she felt she could do better. Personally, I could really see the effort she was putting into Cheer and yet others think otherwise. It is inevitable in Cheerleading: with it being such a competitive extreme sport, there are bound to be times when one feels that he/she is not performing in top form.
So my dearest friend (I shall not mention her name due to it being somewhat a sensitive issue), don't be too harsh on yourself. You have so many awesome friends in Cheerleading that you do not have to carry this burden alone. You say you lack the practice, you lack the basics to perform, but I say that it is nothing to be worried about. We are all in the same team, we are all running towards the same goal, so you are not alone. We work hard as a team, we play hard as a team, but most importantly, we fight hard as a team! It is good to make goals for yourself like what you have shared with me, and let's work together encouraging each other in times of need. Cheerleading is not only about the gravity-defying stunts, the graceful techniques or the jaw-dropping tumblings, but it is also about being part of the Cheer family(: You may think that people are not appreciating your efforts, but as long as you do not give up on yourself, you will see fruition of your labors. Like what everybody in Cheer says, "Go, Fight, Win!" So Cheer up and fight on!
Another person who shared her troubles with me was my cheer senior yang姐.. Without her, I don't think I am able to do much. She taught me a lot about Cheer: how to maintain a positive attitude in times of criticisms, techniques on how to improve and so much more. Whenever she stunts, her smile will always dazzle and awe her juniors such as me! Haha(: Plus, she helped me get a spot in Hall13 along with Chengling and Michelle, which was a BIG help! As the team is due to perform in late July, yang姐 took the entire team under her wing in terms of administration, routine and trainings. I could see that she was really stressed out as she kept frowning during training today. I could also tell that training was progressing rather slow today due to certain issues such as flyers not having the foundation for performing an advanced stunt etc ... Frankly speaking, I felt that yang姐 was already doing the team a huge favor in coming down and helping out. She has her own team (NTU Spectrum) to worry about, yet she still took the time off to come down. She even told me she would help me in perfecting my full-up if she had the time yay! She really is a good senior and friend. However today during the journey home, she told me she was really stressed out about the fact that the routine was not confirmed and that there was not enough time to train till the performance. She also told me she needed help in creating the routine but she found no one who had the experience of doing so. I wanted to help her but I know that I would just add more troubles for her, so I just tried to cheer her up. I really could see that yang姐 was trying her utmost best to make a miracle happen, but she was too overwhelmed by various aspects. I just wished I could help her more but being a noob in Cheer, there was nothing I could do but to only provide her words of encouragement. Whatever happens yang姐 jiayous! You have the whole team's support and respect!
With today being a solemn day, I saw another person rather down; it was my dearest Hubby. Before training, he was looking through various pictures of his days back in Gusto and he told me he felt really depressed for not letting himself improve in Cheer. In my eyes, he was already better than so many other bases out there, and many others can vouch for his talent too! If he was not talented, the people from Wildcards would not have wanted to recruit him in. If he was not talented, many people would not have thanked him for giving them the opportunity to achieve their goals. If he was not talented, I would have improved at all. He still beat himself down for not being able to surpass a few of his goals he has made for himself, so I made a promise with him that we would work hard together to achieve our goals(: The moment I enter NTU, he has decided to pave another path for himself in Cheer and I am giving him my full unwavering support! I've seen him during the Wildcards Recruitment Drive and I could see the fire in his eyes as he did a few stunts for the head coach to see. I could even say that the head coach was very much interested in him joining as he kept asking Hubby whether he could keep trainings as a commitment to the team and himself. He truly is one talented cheerleader and probably the most flexible guy out there! Haha(: the reason why he trained himself to do a perfect split was to show girls that if a guy in his mid-20s can do such an amazing split, there is simply no excuse that the girl can't. He really is an amazing trainer. So darling, I just want to let you know that even though you have not been training for 2years+, it is not too late to start seriously right now. You have so much dormant potential in you, waiting for the time to shine it upon the world to see. Remember all those crazy American Cheerleading videos we watched together? We even told ourselves that we should train ourselves to do at least half of what they can do. Back then I was not joking, right now I am still not joking(: I believe that you have the ability to excel anyone as long as you put your heart to it. So Hubby, don't lose hope okays? I know I have spoiled your fabulous tight 6pac body with so many bulging muscles, but right now I am willing the amend my ways for the both of us(: I am no longer pushing my leftover meals to you!!! :P baby, you're my hero and always will be, so give it all you've got and shine like the awesome Cheerleader you are! :D Go Fight Win!
(So much for short post LOL!) Anyways, this post also goes out to this bunch of really awesome people who have been giving me their undying support and encouragement. I shall not shed too much light on this matter as it is a really sensitive topic which may sparked further unwanted issues. But I am rather disappointed with a particular group of people for being so close-minded like a bunch of manipulated puppets. Anyways, I'm way past that and shall not disclose the issue any further..
I want to thank Shenesse for always being the bubbly one in the group: laughing and smiling as radiant as the sun. Your happy-go-lucky attitude is what I need to boost my every mornings. Having people like you with such enthusiasm and glee makes my day complete(:
Gio, I can truly see a leader in you. You are always watching those around you, making sure that they are not left out: a strong man stands up for himself, a stronger man stands up for others. I will not forget what you have told me(: Your determination and perseverance will definitely get you far in life and I really do appreciate the kind words and encouragement.
To Edwin, you are really a funny guy who is surprisingly good in Chinese idioms. Even though sometimes I don't understand what you are saying because my Chinese is just that bad, but I know you mean well(: and maybe because Cc helped me explain a bit of what you meant. Hahaha but dude! For the sake of Shenn and me, please give a translation after your every Chinese idiom! Haha still, I appreciate the kind gestures(:
Kenneth, appearances can really be deceiving. For small guy like you, you really do know how to pack a punch. Your constant encouragement to those around you really makes you stand out as well. I thank you for the support and encouragement in a rather hilarious way, but that just makes it all the more memorable(: You also have a never-die spirit which I find truly admirable that people should learn more from you!
Last but not least, I want to thank Joel: I know you do mean well, but suddenly stepping out and demanding for an explanation is not exactly what I had in mind for clarifying certain doubts. Hahahaha. But I assure you that I am way past it :) Thank you for stepping up for me, and even going against a few people just to show me such strong support and care. I really am fortunate to have you close by(: Even though I assured you that the problem is solved a long time ago, and that was no fuss, your enthusiasm in wanting to clear certain doubts is truly refreshing. Hahaha(: I could learn more from you!
I really do want to give these people a huge thank-you hug for giving me their undying support and encouragement, even though I am absolutely fine and relieved that the issue is out of my head! It is truly a joy to have met them(: they are always standing up for me and giving me their unwavering faith. I really do appreciate their kind gestures even though it may seem rather offensive to a certain other people. I really am looking forward to our gym/movie dates!(: We are thinking of watching Ice Age 4 btw because Edwin loves the squirrels LOL.
That is all I have for my post today. Pardon my somewhat lengthy post even though I did say it was going to be a short one. Oh wells, better not lengthen it any further now! Toodles!(: