" :) I'm happy because I'm with you ... "
It was like a day like any other. It did not feel different, it did not seem different, it was a usual day for the both of us. When the clock struck midnight, did we then realized that that was not just a random day: It was our 2nd year anniversary.
That's right. Chen Cheng and I have finally passed the big ole 2! Frankly speaking, the journey till this point has not been easy at all. Our lives itself were already a huge roller-coaster ride, plus we have to constantly work on the relationship as well, which makes it a really formidable job. We celebrated our first year in a Paris restaurant, but this year we just let it slipped by unknowingly. At first the both of us felt quite bad for not celebrating it like a monumental occasion, but later we found out that the both of us had the same sentiments: we felt there was no need to make such a huge fuss over the past 2 years.
Along my journey with Hubby, I found myself growing to be more self-reliant: no more that petty, spoilt girl anymore, but a lady who knows how to take care of herself even without the presence of her loved ones. After going onto so many overseas trips with Hubby, I've grown accustomed to the fact of taking good care of myself. But it remains undeniably strong that I still miss my family so much when I am overseas. Perhaps it is because of this, that I took a huge step in deciding the University I wanted to attend. In the end, I chose Psychology at NTU, even though it meant that I had to stay in their hostel and be away from my family for a few years. I really did surprise myself and my mother. She found it hard to believe that I would willingly take up accommodation at a foreign place. I told myself: it is a sacrifice I am willing to make.
Back to my topic: After being in this relationship for two years, I noticed certain aspects of it changing - some for the better, some for the worst. It is all inevitable, but still, I hope this relationship will remain strong. Frankly speaking, Hubby and I are not like any other couple. We have been living with each other for 1 year and 9 months now. There is a difference between a couple staying overnight at each other's houses every now and then, and a couple who has been living side by side for so long. Both Hubby and I being a 'baby' couple (as what my mother describes it) find it hard to actually cope with it.
I mean after living with him for so long, I am inclined to see all his bad habits, his irritable disregard for certain aspects which makes me tick, his neglect for certain rules under the roof etc. And this goes the same for me. As the both of us are way too different in so many areas -such as personality, character, personal habits, we find it hard to get-along/live-together as time goes by. For example: Chen Cheng has this habit of throwing his pjs about the place every morning as he rushes to get to work. As for me, I will make sure I will either fold it nicely on the bed or hang it up on the coat stand. Chen Cheng likes to leave little 'mountains' of letters and documents on our desk as he is constantly receiving letters and notes from clients, banks etc. As he doesn't really use the desk at home much (he has his own desk at his office), he doesn't really clear it up as often as I do, so his side is mostly ... untidy. Chen Cheng also has this bad habit of using my towel every now and then because he doesn't really remember which is his, so I would normally get rather particular about personal hygiene.
But of course, I myself, am not perfect either. There are certain issues about me that my darling does not see fit. For example, I would get a bit too clingy onto him sometimes, especially when he is working, and he finds it hard to concentrate since he has to constantly worry about my well-being. For me, I will think that he doesn't want to spend time with me as he is always so occupied with his job. Plus, there are many times when I keep changing our plans: we were supposed to do something later that evening, but because of certain issues of mine, I will cancel it and most of the time, I will end up disappointing him. Another bad habit of mine would be blaming him if something bad happens out of the blue: I've always thought of my darling as someone so 'powerful' that he is constantly in control of everything, so when something doesn't go as it should, I would be flaring up on him.
So you see? There are so many things about us that we have to change but it takes time to change. However, as we are living together, the idea of having to face the same problems over and over again, just tips off the balance of the relationship. Many people suggests that we should take it slow and perhaps behave like a normal couple again: with Chen Cheng finding another place to stay. Whenever I hear that, I would always exaggerate the issue and think that it would mean that Hubby and I have to break up.
2 years of being together is no easy feat, but Chen Cheng and I have miraculously survived the many months of quarreling, fighting, crying and whatnot. Granted that as we continue living together, we are faced with more difficulties than a normal couple, but so far we have managed to tackle so many obstacles even when the odds are not in our favor. I can't say that this relationship is perfect, but I have to say that I am willing to make this relationship work. Even though there are certain things I can't get Hubby to change, but even so, I still love him: his strengths, his weaknesses, his perfections and his flaws.
Like what I saw: Some relationships are like Tom and Jerry, they irritate each other, they tease each other, but they still can't live without each other. I am flawed, my darling is flawed, but I still can't live without him in my life. So to my dearest baby, if you see this post, I just want to thank you for everything you did in my life and I love you so much. Without you, my life would never be the same, and I am so happy that I agreed to be your girlfriend 2 years ago. Happy 2nd year Anniversary my baby!