Bonjour everybody! You may wonder what I'm doing so early in the morning.. Or what my body clock denotes as the "morning awakening of doom".

Yes I'm heading to the gym again to hit the cardio, have been snacking a lot these past few days, so I've got to lose the extra ... Whatever! Technically I didn't gain weight, but I know I'm not eating right either, so what better way to reduce those negativity with some positivity!

That's not the bulk of my post for today. I'm here to clear up something many of my dearest readers seem to misunderstand.

I've mentioned it many times that I'm not freaking anorexic, neither am I bulimic! I don't force myself to starve at one corner, with a notebook in one hand, dreadfully weeping as I read through my daily log of calories. NO! I don't fucking do that!

Neither have I ever stuck my finger down my throat and massaged my gag reflex till I throw up every shit I ate before that. NO! I find that entirely revolting!

Those are really severe cases for girls who are desperately trying to lose weight while under constant depression and self-neglect. And I'm not one of them! I lose weight the good way! - diet and exercise :) it makes me feel good all the time.

So you may be asking why I'm saying all these all of a sudden .. The reason is because I've quite a lot of people leaving me messages about me overdoing my whole "diet" scheme.

And here I am trying to clear the air ...

Many of you commented that I'm not fat, I'm slim, I'm fit, I have good self-control ... Thank you! I appreciate your kind comments, but once again, what I'm achieving for is not BONEY-SKINNY till the extent that I look like a skeleton inside-out. What I want to be is SLIM-FIT, like what my twin has always been trying to achieve.



And here's a good idea of what I'm talking about, except I don't want to be too bulky around the abs area. So yea.

Since I'm a person WHO LOVES TO EAT GOOD FOOD, you will never have to worry about me starving myself for the entire month, because I just don't have that kind of desperation or psycho-maniac feelings about myself. I love the body I am in, therefore I'm doing my best to make it fit and reward it when it is due. That is what I'm aiming for my dear fellow friends.

You may then ask why am I so obsessed with achieving that kind of figure/goal/weight etc ... And here is the answer: I've been overweight ever since I was young, and frankly speaking I don't like people teasing me about my figure. Plus whatever I wore just makes me feel bad and horrible about myself so yes, I hated myself. Then my mother couldn't see me torturing myself anymore, so she sought out for a specialized nutritionist for me to get on track to getting slim and healthy. Her services did not come cheap and I can bet that it costs more than what most of your parents are earning now. I don't mean to brag, but I just want to show you all how much my mother loves me to actually spend so much just to make me feel better about myself. So I couldn't let her down anymore. I proceeded on with the plan and managed to lose 20kg in the first year.

My weight has then never exceeded my ideal weight right now, but I'm still not satisfied because I want to show others that they too can lose weight if they want to. Seriously it has been a real tough journey for me to get to what I am right now, because I am one with entirely no self-control whatsoever I tell you.

And after joining cheerleading, my insecurities crept in again, so I've decided to go onto another weight-losing journey. It hasn't been so successful with me only losing a few kg. But thank goodness I have a very awesome, amazing boyfriend who never lets the insecurities get the better out of me, and of course with such a health-junkie like him, I have no excuses to say 'no' whenever he hits the gym.

So that's why I'm really more of an exercise-junkie! I want to look good, feel good, and live good. There is nothing wrong with exercising to lose weight, especially when I get to be more fit and improve my stamina no matter what I do! :)

PS: I've finally have a thigh-gap on my upper-thighs! See? Told you my exercises are not in vain! :D