" shit happens .. "

Applauds to the image above - my exact sentiments right now. Got most of my promo results back, and I'm just disappointed. Nothing much to say/do, but you get the point. I try not to let it get to me, since I have to start mugging for re-papers, thus I've been trying to be oblivious to those dreadful worries. Haven't been doing anything for the past few days actually, just sleeping, slacking and sleeping. Yes I caught up on a lot of sleep so far! :) Yay for me. Of course, I'm trying to catch up on cheerleading as well.

Learnt the basics for round-off and practised jumpings with 宝贝so that we can accomplish our dream of doing toss to hand cupie together. We tried cupie out many times and we succeeded once! It was not a glorious one because it didn't really last very long, but it is a step! Yes, a step to a more perfect cupie. Kenrick and Zongda also trained their strength, tanking my weight. Omg. I know I'm damn heavy but they did awesome in tossing me up. Trying to lose weight on my end here and yes it is difficult, but very rewarding in knowing that I'm another step closer to my dream. Bryan inspired me the other day. He lost a whopping 3kg and I plan to do so too! Currently at 45kg .. stagnant ... but not for long! I'm getting used to my recent diet, as in I can survive with 2slices of bread for lunch! At least its better than not eating at all. Because a person will find it harder to lose weight if one doesn't eat. Haha, learnt this from my doctor. So eating a bit will help to stabilize one's metabolism rate! Skipping breakfast is a bad thing because a healthy breakfast helps to start off one's metabolism rate. So therefore, I have never skipped breakfast ever! Only lunch or dinner :) Plus, having training with my darling helps me to lose weight too! We are trying to squeeze in 2 trainings in a week but have to depend on schedules, plus official cheer trainings, we would have about 4 cheer trainings in a week. And if my baby wants to join Denvers Cheer training, that means we would have 5! Haha. A good way to lose weight too! :D

With that, I'm trying to take my mind of school right now, therefore I occupy myself with other stuff like Cheerleading and Patapon 2. Of course it works, but the effects are only temporary. I mean whenever I go back to school, I start worrying again ... :( Heck, I just want to see my General Paper results, because GP determines everything! Whether I get kicked out of school or able to promote to J2. Scary ain't it? It sure scares the shiz out of me :/ I've determined my schedule for the month. And the one activity dominating my schedule is cheerleading. Haha. Its a good thing! Since I want to improve different areas of cheerleading. So wish me all the best! :P

I'm thinking of whether I should go gym tomorrow with Kenrick. Probably yes, since I want to try running 5km. But I find it harder to run on a treadmail, since I am confined in THAT space, running and running but getting nowhere. So I guess I would probably run around Singapore Polytechnic, but I hope I don't get lost. Sighs* LOL. Perhaps some times I should try meeting up with Terie to run 5km with her because she has been training for some 10km Nike Marathon. She is just amazing I tell you. And Bryan too. Omg. He can run a freaking 10km! Admirable, inspirational and motivating. I need to run too! LIKE PROBABLY NOW. LOL. I guess I shouldn't concern myself with my weight at the moment, but more on my exercising routine. On days I don't have cheerleading trainings, I guess I could make use of the time to visit my old friend - the stadium, and probably run 3km like what I did last time. Thus the thick fat thighs I have right now, which the muscles all turned into fats. My stamina has not fallen, (surprisingly) but my determination has ... which is quite depressing and all. So that's why I need to pick myself up again. I know I am a person of low self esteem. And this needs correcting too. From now onwards, I have to tell myself that "I CAN DO IT. No matter what :) "

Well that's all I'm going to post for today :P Toodles.
Loving Cheerleading and Cc with no boundaries{♥}