"if i were a flower blooming by the side of the mad rush road,
would you
still make the trouble to come by and water me?"

was supposed to meet up with raymond, kenrick, yugene, yongli for a movie date today.
they are watching the 'karate kid' ... but then when raymond gave me a morning call today, i told him i couldn't make it and i guess he was quite ticked off at the fact that i didn't inform him sooner ..
and i just want to like apologise for that. so i smsed him and apologised for not informing him beforehand that i was not able to make it today, and i guessed my indecisiveness had caused him some troubles and unhappiness and i hope he can forgive me for that.
i promised it would not happen again ...

today's plan is quite simple.
i'm staying at home to study study study all day long ...
i see my elder brother getting ready to go out any time soon with genevive.. told me he is going to see a chinese physician today to check out his back problem.
my mother told me he injured his back some time ago when he was cheerleading and then because he didn't really think much into it, the injury got worst.
well he did recover from it, but i guess the army training was too harsh and sort of triggered the old back injury once again. ouch!
after josh checked out from the basecamp, he quickly went to the hospital with genevive for a checkup.
awwwww my poor elder brother .. i hope he recovers soon!(:

so anyways about the studying part, yea, i'm quite serious since my exams are commencing in exactly one week's time ... argh the agony! D:
going to start with maths and then to physics then lastly economics. aaahhhhhh, screw the exams!! T.T
i'm like really worried for the next two weeks .. not because i'm scared about the exams, yes i am slightly scared and stressed about it, but that's not the main point .. i'm worried i'm not able to see cc at all! D: ahhhhhhhh ...
two weeks not being able to see my 小冬瓜 is like torture to me!! D: D: D:
and about cheer practice tomorrow, i'm not sure whether i'm allowed to go in the first place ... i've a feeling that cc might not want me to go tomorrow! T.T
sadness.
but i feel like going tomorrow since kenrick is going to pass me his notes ... he didn't come for the previous training so i didn't have any chance to get the notes from him ... D: major saddness!
and i miss vv they all like super much!! and not to forget bob too! he should be coming back from malaysia tonight and i'm really hoping that he would go for tomorrow's practice. it's been a while since i last trained with bob!! D:
hahahahaha. i feel like my life is such a mess right now... ahhhhhhhh someone save me! D:

well that's all for my post today.
i know i'm such an emotional wreck right now.
but i can't help it since exams are coming and i can't see cc!
and perhaps my monthly thingy is going to visit me soon .. D:
so anyways toodles!
loving cheerleading and cc!(: