i felt like i did something really guilty yesterday ...
i sincerely admit that it was entirely my fault for failing and giving up just like that. worse of all, i said something really bad to my bf, and it really hurt him bad.
i'm really sorry for being such a bad gf.
its like he is the best bf anybody could have asked for, he loves me for who i am and he makes me feel secure no matter what.
but it was because i was too weak that i can't match up with him.
thus this post is specially for him(:

he is like the sun in the sky, shining bright for all to see.
even as night falls, he is still at his best(:
his love for me is neverending, and he never fails to look out and protect me.
whenever i'm with him, i always find myself smiling and laughing.
i find myself really really happy whenever i'm with him.
i love it especially when we always tease each other, poking fun at one another.
i love holding his hand because it always give me a sense of security.
i love hugging him because it makes me feel protected.
i love pinching his cheeks because he is always so cute.
and i love kissing him the most!(:

he knows how to make me happy all the time, and whenever i'm sad, he will try his best to make me smile again.
he knows how to shower me with beautiful words to make me feel really loved all the time.
he knows how to make me laugh like crazy by his every actions.

i feel really blessed to have a bf like him, because he is really one of the rarest kind of guys ever.
a true gentleman, a loving boyfriend and an outgoing person.
i really feel so inferior when i'm with him, and i have to work hard to be able to match up with him.
whatever the case is ... i just want to say 我很爱你 实在太爱你了。without you, my life would never be the same again. you are like the air i breathe, the water i drink, the ground i walk on ... you are my life(: and indeed you are the best boyfriend anybody could have! :D

his name is chencheng (陈诚) and his nickname is 小冬瓜 (wintermelon) ... hahaha(:
but most of the time i call him 大傻瓜，大笨蛋 etc.. :D
he is a passionate cheerleader who is around 168cm tall, and ranges from 65-67kg. but he did told me that he shrunk after many years of cheerleading .. hahaha.
he is the pioneer batch/creator of gusto and he treats gusto like his very own baby. he has been cheering for about 3years and he treats cheerleading as an extreme sport which he has fallen in love with.
despite suffering from many injuries, he still loves cheerleading a lot and his passion for cheerleading is really admirable.
even after he has graduated from singaporepoly, he still returns there to attend gusto trainings. and his course was infocomm when he was studying there.
he has many dreams and i know one of them was to make cheerleading a more credible sport which can be seen as an olympic sport.
another dream was to open a restaurant .. if i'm not wrong! hahaha :P
he stresses a lot on me studying hard and having a good education and he hopes to see me do well in Alvls and enter a good university. he really likes to act like my dad .. hahaha:x
he can seem rather harsh at times, especially during cheer trainings, but he is overall a really funny guy who is always out for a good laugh!(:

and he is my boyfriend whom i love a lot!! like a lot a lot a lot!! :D if i don't sms him once in a day, i would feel like the world is ending... hahaha.
小冬瓜，我好爱你(: