" i will never stop loving you. never ever ... "

yesterday:

was supposed to have dinner with him but he got really sick so we went home early.
smsed kyle and asked him whether he wanted to have dinner since its been a while since we last met. and he was free so why not? hahaha. met him at tampines. he was like super fast because he freaking drove 120km/h on the highway to get to tampines. nice(:
went to eat sushi, because japanese food is the only food that can make me happy! haha. we tried to catch up with each other's lives and i sort of realised that he had changed a lot. one thing for sure was that his blonde hair lost its flavour! hahaha it wasn't as vibrant as i last saw it. he lost a lot of weight maybe due to stress and i could have sworn that he grew taller ... (again?!)
shyte kyle. please stop growing! already 187cm tall and still growing? he deserves to get lynched! hahaha :P

i also shared with him about the past few months on how i got to know cheerleading and stuff. he seemed rather interested and i'm sure he will be one AWESOME cheerleader because he already has the build and all, guess he just needs the experience? haha. he told me that perhaps he would start researching about cheerleading stuff and maybe one day join me in one of the cheer trainings. haha. that would be a sight to see! i bet it will be super fun! and i don't think the people there will mind since we need more guys!(: let's just hope that he will be able to squeeze time out for it .. till then, i'm keeping my fingers crossed! :D
i guess he won't be able to find another base to be as tall as him, but i think partner stunts will definitely suit him! :D haha. so exciting just to think about it(:

anyways, he sent me home early since i had to be home by 10pm or else my dad would seriously flare up :P talked a bit more in his car before going home ...

at home, i watched the television for a while before heading straight to bed without changing. i guess i'm like mentally and physically exhausted, but the talk with kyle sort of helped me get my mind straight. then i slept for like 12hours straight.

today:

cc smsed me this morning saying he was feeling better .. thank goodness(: glad to know that he is feeling much better than yesterday .. he looked like he was dying yesterday T.T
so anyways, still contemplating on whether i should go to church today ... a lot of problems had arised since then, and i have been receiving certain bad vibes from different people there. of course there are people in my cg who still supports me such as my beloved cuz glorianne, my cgl chengjun, linette, pj, lance, jovan, mingwei...
sighs* life is sure hard and i haven't even reached 20yet! :0 shyte.

but kyle did tell me "people who are happy with their lives do not always get what they wanted, it's because they know to adapt and make well with things around them, that they realise that they are truly happy.." i guess this really makes sense, and i guess i have to adapt well to my surroundings then!(:

well that's all i'm going to post for today.
loving cheerleading and cc ttm{♥}