Just recently I've realized that I've changed into an entirely different person from what I once was.. And I am aware of it, but do you know that your attitude is changing as well?

I guess time do change us all .. Or just me alone. We used to smile talk and laugh at every mistakes, but now we just point out each other's flaws: expecting the other party to grovel in defeat. Is this what we have really become?

I thought you understood me; my imperfections, my incessant worries over insignificant issues, the over-compulsive disorder which haunts me ever so, coupled with my swaying fragile emotions.
But I was wrong. Instead, you see me as someone who doesn't trust you, when I'm only compelled to triple-check it.
You think I'm irritating when I feel it is important to get certain things done before I can enjoy the others.
I've always thought that we were different from the other couples. Driven to speak different languages, I was uncertain of our future side by side.. But somehow we are still together.
You say it was destiny who brought us face-to-face .. A turn of events, a tweak of nature, and an unlikely place in which we met - can this really be called fate? Or is it just a coincidence.

Coming from a person who believes in a God Almighty, I believe in the intangible ... A greater force which compels and arranged for us to meet. Yet everything that we have faced up till now, is it still by His doing? Or are we just not meant to be?

I used to feel protected, loved and enjoyed learning new things from you..
Now I feel threatened, judged and expectations that I can't guarantee.
I feel like I'm fighting a battle with no end .. No one is winning yet nobody wants to back down in fear of the stripping of one's ego. We are just hurting each other.. But yet we still don't want to understand each other true feelings.

People used to tell me - if you really love him, you would let him go.
As the famous saying go, " Tis better to have loved then lost, than to have never loved at all ... "

I find that hard to believe.
If I really love him, I would never let him go ... I will fight for him to once again acknowledge that we are as one.
However as of now, I'm no longer certain of myself: whether I should carry on fighting for this relationship to work or should I just let fate take over my ending ...

Yet another saying haunts me so, "Fate is just a name cowards give to the past: to them being powerless to change their course of action."

I'm just so confused as to what to do, how to tackle it, and how to react if nothing goes my way...
There are so many "what-ifs" and so few "I know" ... In time, answers will reveal themselves. Yet in time, people change too - most of the time for the worst.

Being stuck at a cross-road just renders me useless, hopeless and filled with desperation: with a tear stained face crying out for someone to rescue me.
If that isn't you.. What is left of us but a dream - it never happened.