" i want to fly ... fly high and beyond what other people make me out to be ... "

i have a lot to blog for today ...
but let me focus on one thing today.
my bf.

after one month together, with each growing day, i realised i can only love him more.
his never-ending love for me, probes him to give in to my selfish whims ...
making sure that i am happy no matter under what circumstances.
he puts in a lot of effort to meet my unlimited wants and needs, everything i desire, he has given in to me nevertheless.
he never complains, protecting me till the end even if it means going all the way to tampines and back to lakeside.
even though in my eyes he is already perfect, but he still wants to improve just because of me.
what happened today, made me realised how much i expect from him.
no we did not argue or fight.
but i've realised that my heart really hurts today after what happened, and i have to make sure nothing like this ever happens again.
all the time, he makes the first move to apologize even though its my fault.
what a bad girlfriend i am :(

dear 小冬瓜,
i hope you can forgive your petty selfish girlfriend.
what happened today clearly wasn't your fault .. i know that you meant well, and i've neglected the fact that you want us to improve despite the time limit we face.
i am such a bad girlfriend. even though you say i'm not, i know that i am ... i've never felt so guilty in all my life.
it is clear to me that i am spoilt, selfish, petty, tempremental, unreasonable and the list goes on.
but you still gave in to my every whim.
i promise i will change for the better ... i will definitely change my ways ... i will definitely become a better girlfriend ... i will definitely treasure you deep in my heart ... i will definitely become more matured.
no longer will i take advantage of your kindness ... no longer will i ever neglect your wellwishes for us .. no longer will i ever let you shoulder the whole burden of this relationship.

我很爱你小冬瓜
在我的眼里，你是我最完美的男朋友。
我真的很爱你 如果你不要我了 我还是会继续爱你的。
love like a never-ending stream, flows through the passage of time, will never end ...
flowing from the mountains, the highest peak ... down to the rivers, worldwide vastness.

for him, i am willing to make a change.
for him, i am willing to take the risks.
for him, i am willing to leave aside my life.
for him, i am willing to go the extra mile.
for him, i am willing to sacrifice my everything.

please God, give me strength to make this change.
help me to be able to grow stronger in maturity.
thank you for letting me meet him,
thank you for making me fall in love with him.
thank you for giving me so many chances.
please God, i pray ... make me a better person for him.

" Someday, believe that love will finally reach the stage of eternity, and freeze time in that immediate moment. "

and that concludes my post for today.
loving my 宝贝小冬瓜 till the end of eternity.